Notes from October

Oh, hello! How have you been? I’m back with a slightly-too-personal recap where I talk about the past month. October was a lot. And I’m not just saying that because I don’t know how to do these monthly recaps any more. At least I can say I’m doing well, and I’m with both my feet on the ground. It’s been little over a year since it’s all gone to shits, yet I feel as if I am finally seeing a change. And I am feeling grateful for that.

Let me talk you through it… among other things: I quit my job at the start-up company, had some talks to start my own side-business with a friend, my brother had his thesis defence and now is fully fledged phd-doctor-person, had a week at home while doing various job interviews, went to London and Brighton for 4 days — and from November onwards I’ve started my new job.

I am fully aware that may be this might be quite enough for one month, but at the same time I feel so terribly uneasy with how I’m doing and where I’m going. Like what I’m doing isn’t what I should be doing, or that what I’m doing isn’t enough. I’m trying to remind myself of the things I know, like: “don’t compare yourself to other people”, or maybe more “don’t compare yourself to someone else’s today, but your own yesterday”. Or that time is a construct, and now is the only thing we have. Which is all kind of working. Sometimes I really do think I’m going insane, but then I talk to other people and realise we’re all mad. Which is some kind of consolation. Maybe November will be my time where I practice the power of quiet meditation? Or (re)watching movies like Kiki’s Delivery Service that make me feel all the feels.

Moving on from doom and gloom, I got myself an extra pair of glasses this month! My friend and flatmate got us tickets for the new Beirut gig in Holland in April next year (as he’s finally putting out a new album, FINALLY!), and in other really happy news: I got myself a miso strainer from Muji. Ok sure, you might now get my excitement now, but in all honesty: miso soup is kind of my favourite to make ever and that strainer makes it all the more fun and easy. I’ll share my kind of miso soup soon on the blog maybe. You’ll be able to impress anyone coming over for sure. :)

And lastly, I think I’m taking in recommendations for books and music. My commute suddenly went from nearly-non-existent to 1+ hour one-way. The job is a 40-hour-workweek-one, which is a bit of a change since it’s the first time I’m working full-time again since my sick-leave last year. But I am feeling hopeful!

Books read in October:
The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck: A Counterintuitive Approach to Living a Good Life by Mark Manson, Wabi-Sabi: For Artists, Designers, Poets & Philosophers by Leonard Koren, Jung: A Very Short Introduction by Anthony Stevens and Warlight by Michael Ondaatje. See more over on Goodreads.

Films watched:
1. Hunt for the Wilderpeople
2. And Then There Were None
3. What We Do In The Shadows*
4. Eye in the Sky
5. The Holiday*
6. Johnny English Strikes Again
7. Slaughterhouse Rulez
8. Bohemian Rhapsody

I have marked the movies I re-watched with an asterisk (see: Letterboxd– if we’re not already: let’s be friends!).

Most listened-to tracks:
Tokyo Police Club – Ready to Win
Joe Janiak – The Best You Ever Had
Beirut – Gallipoli

And that’s all for now folks! Have a good one! x