Notes from April

April! What a month! I got myself back into photography, had my heart trampled upon, accepted a new job, saw a fuckload of cherry blossom, went to the beach more times than I can remember and discovered some sweet new music. Often-times this month I have wondered how it is that people do this. And with this I mean ‘life’.

The last couple of monthly recaps I think I have been a bit sentimental. This is my excuse to act a little self-centred, please excuse me while I have a few things to get off my chest. Life is life is life and it goes on. Realisations of this month? I don’t want to disappoint myself and I sure don’t want to disappoint the people around me. I have some issues with trust. I am afraid of love. And basically being cynical is my coping mechanism. Heck, distancing myself from people is my coping mechanism. It still boggles my mind how this blog is my way of expressing myself, yet I feel incapable of doing so any other way. I tried, I really did try, this month to open up to the people around me. To try and trust myself and the universe to work it out. Doesn’t mean I didn’t fail… but we talked about trying and failing earlier on, right?

But now that April is done, I actually find myself feeling optimistic. Life is a seemingly controllable shitstorm of uncontrollable things and I’m just making the best of it? This may come out more pessimistic than I hoped — really… I am hopeful! Somewhat, at least!! Does it help if I add more exclamation marks?

Books read:
Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear by Elizabeth Gilbert, Things Never to Tell Children by The School of Life and Goodbye Things, The New Japanese Minimalism by Fumio Sasaki. (See Goodreads)

I have started again to read multiple books at the same time. I’m not sure how things have come to this point again. But I just want to say that I really liked all three books this month. I already talked a bit about Big Magic, but Things Never to Tell Children was great. I might actually put it on my wishlist to have in my bookcase at one point in life because it was a weirdly satisfying and uplifting read. Fumio Sasaki’s book was a bit of an eye-opener on the minimalism-phenomenon for me. I’ve always liked the sentiment of owning less, but having grown up in the environment that I grew up in I also learned how sometimes it’s very useful to just have some of those seemingly-random things (aka: be a bit of a hoarder?). But then yes, Sasaki did have some great points that I’d like to incorporate into my life and already somewhat have. I might do a little something on that soon-ish?

Movie-wise the month started out brilliantly, then I didn’t watch shit for weeks, and finished with a glorious film-get together where I could finally cross some movies of my to-watch list. My favourite this month was probably ‘What We Do in the Shadows’. A mockumentary from Jemaine Clement and Taika Waititi about… ehr, well… vampires who flat-share? Waititi’s smile was the cutest thing throughout that, for sure. Highly, highly recommended if you’re into awkward, well-produced, niche nerd-films. And I mean that in the most positive way possible. It was solid gold.

Movies watched:
1. The Full Monty
2. Persepolis
3. What If
4. The Avengers: Infinity War
5. The Big Sick
6. What We Do in the Shadows
7. Logan Lucky
8. Home Again
9. The Room
10. Red Nose Day Actually

No re-watches this month, see Letterboxd for more details.

Most listened-to tracks:
Tom Rosenthal – ETIGAFY
Arcade Fire – Everything Now
Honne – Sometimes

How have you been?? How was your April? Are there any things you’re looking forward to in May? I feel so out of touch, which… sure I figured because ‘life’. Please do tell me, what do you do to keep yourself from feeling overwhelmed all the time?