Notes from March

Hello friends! We’re back with a silly excuse of a monthly recap! I’m writing this from the comfort of my bed, with a lazy black cat on my side. March was, well… I’m not sure how to put this. But somehow March was a month where life was starting over again. Like, in the Noah and the Whale song from that album I love to listen during the first days of spring — so aptly titled: ‘The First Days of Spring’. March was a month of reflection, of tying loose ends and of making room for new beginnings. March was beautiful, tiresome and hopeful. Even though I still often-times feel sad, empty and annoyed with myself — I know that things are looking up. And I start daring to hope again.

One of the most beautiful things I learned this month was the power of friendship. Real, pure, painful and honest friendship. I am still an introverted, shy and sometimes self-conscious person. But knowing that, through it all, I don’t only have family to fall back on — I also really have solid gold friends. And fuck, life is hard! But they make it so worth my while.

I am still trying to keep my blog as light-hearted as possible. But I cannot lie, this has kept my thoughts occupied in March. And coming up are some of the fun things that have kept me busy this last month.

To live if is to suffer. To survive is to find some meaning in the suffering.

— From Nietzsche, in Viktor E. Frankl’s Man’s Search for Meaning

Books read: The Invisible Man by H.G. Wells, Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine by Gail Honeyman, Man’s Search for Meaning by Viktor E. Frankl, The Rosie Project by Graeme Simsion, Create Dangerously by Albert Camus and Het Wezen van de Olifant by Toon Tellegen. (See Goodreads)

I just want to say, if there’s just one book you will read this year, or in your lifetime, let it be Man’s Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl. It’s rather laughable how I stumbled upon this, but I’m extremely pleased that I finally read this book. I think I might even reread it soon. Or actually buy a physical copy of it as I read the audiobook. In this book, first published 1946, Frankl describes his theories based on his experiences in labour-camps during World War II. Frankl laboured in four different camps while his parents, brother, and pregnant wife perished. Frankl argues in this book that we cannot avoid suffering but we can choose how to cope with it, find meaning in it, and move forward with renewed purpose. Even though Frankl is very inspired by Freud, his theory holds that our primary drive in life is not pleasure (as Freud maintained) but the discovery and pursuit of what we personally find meaningful.

Films seen:

  1. Papers, Please: The Short Film
  2. Lady Bird *
  3. Dear Basketball
  4. Negative Space
  5. Lou
  6. Revolting Rhymes
  7. Garden Party
  8. The Secret Life of Walter Mitty *
  9. The Darjeeling Limited *
  10. The French Connection
  11. Treasure Island
  12. The Boat That Rocked *
  13. Tomb Raider
  14. My Life In Ruins
  15. I Don’t Feel at Home in This World Anymore

March wasn’t a great movie month, I have a fuckload on my to-watch list that I keep putting off to watch somehow. I watched several short films this month, which had something to do with the Oscars the beginning of March. I’ve again marked the films I’d already seen before with an asterisk. See Letterboxd for more details.

However, I did finally (!!!) get around to start watching Westworld and I abso-fucking-lutely love it. I’m only three episodes in and I haven’t been disappointed one bit yet.

What, then, is art? Nothing simple, that is certain. And it is even harder to find out amid the shouts of so many people bent on simplifying everything. On the one hand, genius is expected to be splendid and solitary; on the other hand, it is called upon to resemble all.

— Albert Camus in Create Dangerously

Most listened-to tracks:
Foals – Mountain at My Gates
Tom Rosenthal – Got Gold
Sufjan Stevens – To Be Alone With You

So, what’s new? April has started, I sort of skipped April Fools because ain’t nobody got time for that. But I did finally, after debating for about four years (I know, I am actually insane), buy myself a new DSLR. It will be delivered somewhere this coming week. Yes, I am elated. But also yes: I’m not quite sure how to put that elation into words. Let’s just see if the pictures of the April recap will be better, ok?

Happy April, folks! I hope you have a wonderful spring or autumn wherever you are!